Saturday, December 27, 2008

Best Christmas EVER!

Ok, so I did end up spending Christmas Eve with SJ :) We went back to my apt, turned on some Christmas music and talked. I asked him where we were going; to which he replied he didn't know but that I had always made him happy (which made my foolish heart skip several beats). I looked in his eyes and he was dead serious. Why did he have to be serious?..Then we got into some hot and heavy boo-loving accompanied by ahemiceandahemhandcuffs (TMI? so what!). After it was all said and done we fell asleep in each other's arms. The brakes have officially failed yall...

Christmas morning, I came back to mom's and helped her rush wrap gifts because she was too tired to do it the night before. We exchanged gifts and everyone was happy. Mom got me thee entire Victoria's Secret Pure Seduction scent collection (OMG, i'm addicted to this stuff!) and this Sephora eyeshadow/lipgloss collection:)

Later we took a trip on over to grandmoms to give her gifts. Even though Christmas is not all about gift giving, I notice the older I get..the more I love to give. Also, its just lovely to be around your family..The people that share your blood and who you've watched grow, change, love, hurt, have children, laugh, cry. All these people make you who you are whether you realize it or not. Ok, i'm tearing up now. Time to move on..

On to Daddy's house..I took him and his girlfriend their gifts. Just so you guys know, for the past year i've been building a broken relationship with my father. He and my mom broke up when I was 5 due to his substance abuse issues. But before that he was bigger than Superman to me...always has been. I applaud my mother because she never kept me from him. It was my choice to stay away but when I got older I made the decision to seek the other half of me. He is getting older and he doesn't do things he used too. Man, I never knew my dad was so funny cause he had me cracking the hell up. He's getting married to his girlfriend next month and asked me to give him away. Wow right?

At the end of the day I was ready to pass out face first. And I did.

- I hope your Christmas was as lovely as mine!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas Lovlies!

I've been out an about in this oops-I-forgot-to-get-blankandblank-a-gift! at the last minute pandemonium. It's actually been smooth for me..Let me run down the list of goodies I got for the fam:

Mom: Donna Karen Cashmere mist perfume set
Brother: Brian Westbrook jersey
Sis: Sony mp3 player
GMom: Plush cream cashmere robe
Dad: Pajama set and slippers

I know I missed a lot of people but theres a lot of ppl in my family..Shoot, it'd be impossible to get everyone. Besides, Christmas shouldn't be all about gifts. It's the love that counts ya dig?...Ok, enough w/the holdiay hoopla.

What i've been up to:
Partying! Friday me and the roomie went to Bleu Martini in Philly and had soooOoo much fun and I always end up dancing with the oddest/nerdiest/weirdest dudes in the club.

Exhibit A:

"What the hell?! Were yall partying at 711?"-Smiley

Exhibit B (this summer)
"Do the Urkel!"

Then I ended up dancing with an extra from the Billie Jean video:

Hee Hee!

Saturday I hit up a friend's Christmas party and had a fabulous time! We played this game called "Never Have I Ever"where you say something about yourself; if it's true you drink along with anyone else it's true for. Ex: "Never Have I Ever: Had sex on a roof.." (yea I have lol) Ok, let's just say I was pretty drunk after that game:

Too late!

Ok, on to my fav subject..Mens!
I just can't seem to fall back from SexyJamaican. He had a change of plans and will be in Jerz until mid Jan. Ok, since I got the peen he's been coming around/calling/texting consistently. I feel like he's seriously trying to make a conscious effort to be in my life. I'm surprised, confused, excited, happy, but most of all--scared. All my friends are telling me not to believe the hype but as soon as he comes around I forget all their advice. We've spent a lot of time together in the last couple weeks and I like it. In fact we're supposed to chill later on today..on Christmas Eve yall *chile please stare*....That's a big deal to me because I always spend holidays boo-less. I think i'm gonna get some things straight with him tonight though because i'm still not sure where we stand or where this is even going........

Ok, i'm tired of typing but I shall return with lots of stories about holiday fuckery

CHILE PLEASE--Have a Merry Christmas lovlies! :)

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Unhealthy obsession

No, not with a man but with ZEBRA PRINT! I'm not sure when it started but it may have begun last year when I changed my myspace background to a pink zebra print. I kept trying to change it but nothing else looked right..Soon after I started painting my nails zebra print and it just all went downhill from there

Zebra print tights, robe, clutch, big bag

And this fabulous lovely dress! Fits me like a glove dont'cha think? all I need is some sheets...

CHILE PLEASE- Call me tacky all you want..I'm still more fabulous than you!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008


OK, gather 'round goes:

So all weekend I studied my butt off for my nursing final. Mannnn, by Sunday night my brain was fried crunchier than southern chicken. I called it quits and passed out. So I check my phone Monday morning and I have a text from SexyJamaican saying that he's back in town for the day. Hmmm...I told him I was on my way to a final and he wished me luck. So after that grueling 150 question exam me and my nursing homegirl got our end of the semester celebration started with a few drinks at the apt. Ok, so i'm already tipsy 2 o'clock in the afternoon. My thoughts shifted back to SJ..I told him I would like to see him before he left..Next thing you know he's calling me from the parking lot.

I bring him up and he starts complaining that he was hungry so I cooked him something to eat (I hate when men don't eat!'s a pet peeve of mine picked up by mom. Besides he was gonna need the energy teehee)

We started off chillin in my room watching CNN footage of Pres Bush getting a shoe hurled at his dumb head. The he says: "Turn the TV off and look at me..."

I turned it off.

Then as he stares at me: "What are you thinking about?"..
IDK, a lot..I guess..
Like what?

I told myself I wouldn't have sex with him..That I only wanted to see him: I stared at him.

I told myself that I would just kiss him. That I only wanted to feel his lips on mine: We kissed.

I TOLD myself that I wouldn't let his hands go past my pantyline. That I only wanted to feel his hands on my waist: My panties were on the floor.

I told myself that I didn't wanna go there with him.
But I did.
We did.

He had me grippin on the bed and bitin my lip...his lips. It'd been so long since I got some that I didn't know how to freakin act!

Damn...afterwards I felt weird. Then the typical after sex thoughts started to creep in.."Why did I do that?.." But I quickly shoo'd them away. It is what it is. I figured that was part of my end of semester celebration for all my hard work and dedication. I've deprived myself for too long. After it was all said and done we gave our farewells as he left town. As far as me and him seeing each other he said that he would work something out. When I got back to my apt I cut myself a big piece of chocolate brownie, poured myself another drink, and fell into the most peaceful sleep..

- Sex and chocolate go together like vodka and cranberry..

Monday, December 15, 2008

Peen for me.

So ummm...yea.

CHILE PLEASE--I don't understand it either but just imagine stories i'll have to tell my grandchildren...

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

No peen for me.

I was sick all last week with Strep throat. My voice went from sounding like Dikembe Mutumbo to Cookie Monster to Tommy Pickles. All the while it felt like someone was scratching the back of my throat with a piece of sandpaper. I.Was.Miserable! Doc put me on antibiotics so its finally going away even tho my voice is still on that raspy shit..

So moving on... you already know who I wanna talk about:


Ok, so we've been texting each other back and forth since our last encounter. Nothing too heavy; just 'how ya doing?' blah blah smalltalk. So Sat. night he calls and says he's on his way to my part of town and wanted to stop by. Mind you it's 2a.m. I asked him if it was booty call and if so he might as well call someone else. He's like "nah, I been thinking bout you all week..and i'm movin out of state tomorrow"

Ok, he did tell me he was moving but not until January. How the hell is he gonna put me in this position? I thought about it for a good 10 seconds and told him to swing past cause I was up late anyway. So he calls me 10mins later and tells me that if he comes by he's gonna be ready to do any and everything sexually to me and doesn't know if he can control himself. "Wow" I really wanted to see him but I made it clear since we started talking again that I did not want to have sex with him. That part of my stupidity is over. I know myself and sex does nothing but open that door for my heart to fall on the floor and get stomped the fuck out again. He asked me if I still wanted him to come and I didn't know what to say. I was flip flopping back and forth until he finally said that he wasn't gonna come and would come see me before he left tomorrow. Ok, I left it at that and took my ponk ass to bed.

The next day he didn't show and I wasn't surprised.
The next day I get a text from him saying he had moved.

I told him he must have not really wanted to see me. He says that he did but he couldn't talk right now blah blah.

Man IDK..I miss him; especially since I don't know the next time i'll see him. I kinda regret turning down the peen but on the other hand i'm so PROUD of myself seeing as though how I can NEVER turn down peen from a certified dickmatizer. The way I see it, if he wants me..he'll put in the effort. Shit....

In other news...
The semester is almost over! I took my nursing research final today and I have my nursing III final next Monday. I'm posted up in my room drankin an amaretto sour and listening to ghetto ass Keyshia cole, watching New Jack City. I plan on studying my black ass off until Sunday 12am. After this shit is over me and my roomies are gonna get shit -faced-pissy-ignorant-ass-blackard-ass-dancing-on-
down DRUNK!

No man, no peen, no school..Might as well..

Monday, December 1, 2008

What had happened was...

So in between eating and playing with my G1. I spent all day Saturday shopping w/Big Boy (SJ's brother). Since it was everyones break BigBoy wanted to hang out before he went back to school and so did SJ. We all decided that we would go out later that night but things didn't work out that way... At the last minute BigBoy decides he'd rather get some ass from one of his bust it babaaays. Damn, I didn't really want to stay in the house. The angel on my right shoulder disagreed and told me to sit my ass down but the devil on my right shoulder dropped kicked her ass while I dialed SJ's number. He scooped me up an hour later and we took a ride to AC.

During the entire ride he kept saying how much he missed me and how he was sorry about how things went down. Told me how much he missed having me around as a friend. Told me how much he missed my smile and just being around me. Held my hand during the drive. He kept saying "I know you don't trust me anymore but i'm being real with you.." . He practically spilled his guts on some Ralph Tresvant sensitivity shit. The man damn near asked me to be with him. Even implied marriage..*insert side eye*

During all these confessions of love flying out his mouth i'm thinking "Damn this nigga is a liar.." and at one point I even called him an actor. He just kept em' coming, and the more he threw my way, the more I wanted to believe him..Oh how I want to believe him yall. I'm all for giving folk second chances but ain't too many helpings left after these last 6mths.

We got to our destination and in a moment of silence he grabbed me by the waist, leaned forward, and kissed'm sorry Lovely.."


Damn, why did he have to go and do that?
Then he kissed me.
And I let him.

CHILE PLEASE-- I don't want to go backward but the breaks are failing..What's a girl to do? :(

Turkey and thangs..

Hello lovlies, i'm back from my lil break that I so desperately needed.

Just a few things I did:

  1. Ate
  2. Ate
  3. Ate some more..
  4. Slept
  5. Bought a G1
  6. Played with my G1.. my phone!
  7. Shopped
  8. Shopped some more..
  9. Drank some amaretto sours
  10. Got a forehead kiss from SexyJamaican
CHILE PLEASE--Go on and give me the side eye...