Ms. Lovely is a Registered Nurse!!

It is official. Yes, Ms. Lovely is alive and well. I took a hiatus from blogging because I was studying for my NCLEX (and going through some major fuckery which I will explain later). I took my test Thursday..I was the last one to get registered and the 1st to leave with 75Q. If any of my readers are nurses they know that 75 can be a good or bad thing. Couldn't sleep last night thinking about my results. I logged on today and paid the 8 bucks for the 48hr results and there it was "Pass." A nurse..RN, BSN motheruffas!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so hype right now. Only if you knew what I have been going through for the last 2 weeks (again, will explain next post..)

I feel like nothing can hold me back now! By September I should have a new car, apt, and sense of accomplishment I have never felt before. I am through with the bullshit ass men, liars, cheaters, fake ass friends, and skank bishes who try to bring me down with their words and actions. From now on it's all about ME, ME, ME, ME,ME...forget about YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU...lol..

Today will be a good day. I am going out with one of my classmates and then to a friend's BBQ to celebrate proper with major fuckery to ensue!

CHILE PLEASE!- “I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life's a bitch. You've got to go out and kick ass"--M. Angelou **KICKING ASS!**

Low scores: Sex & Tests

So I finally got the authorization to take my NCLEX exam next month! WooHoo! I'm about to be a registered nurse yall! I took a review course but I still keep getting 50's & 60's on the practice tests (don't look at me like that..these questions are HARD!) so I got a lot of studying to do before then :( The job search hasn't showed me any good outcomes yet, but i'll keep trying. Right now Jersey sucks when it comes to hiring new nurses(stupid economy). I'm thinking about relocating to the DMV area..i'll keep you updated and let you know..

Moving onnnnnnnn...

Sex. I haven't talked about it in awhile.

I need it.
I crave it.
I want it.
I love it.

Despite all my carnal desires...I also love to be...

Held.
Caressed.
Kissed
Stroked--slowly.

You know, "made love to"

I've realized that I haven't felt that way in a loooong time (since my crazy ex BlackMon). Yea, the occasional "break-my-back" session is necessary, but not all the time. Things starts off slow and you can't wait for whats about to go down. Next thing you know he's bunny uffing you...Playing tetherball with your fallopian tubes and whatnot! *sigh* And yes, the dillznick is good sir, but slow the EFF down! and stop stroking like it's going out of style. It's not appealing, nor very pleasing to me in the end. He started at at a solid 90% but he's slowly fallin off..So yea, maybe he needs a little practice and maybe I need to be more vocal about what's gonna be on the test because these scores are becoming unacceptable.

I know what you're thinking: "Well, say something to him!"...I have :/....during. So yea, he's so far gone like Drake by then and all attempts to change the pace are futile. Blah.

Anybody else have this problem?

CHILE PLEASE-- Then I ask myself: Don't you have to be in love...to make love?

Graduation!!!!!!!!!!!

I did it!!!!!! On May 21, 2009 I became a college graduate with my Bachelors of Science in Nursing :) All the studying and stress..crying and careplans...None of that deterred my determination to succeed. The ceremony was a long one but it was worth it. When my name was called my family was loud like black ppl are LOL

And I usually cry at things like this but I was so overwhelmed with happiness that I didn't shed a tear. All that's left for me to do is pass my NCLEX this June and start working. But rest assure, this is not the end. I'm going back for my Masters & Nurse Practitioner. Chile, i'm tryna retire early...

2 days before graduation was the traditional Nurse Pinning Ceremony :)
Had so much fun..and my crazy aunts started a Soul Train Line..LOL!
Then my mom threw me a surprise graduation party
Good Times!!!!


Ok, so after all the festivities I had to move back home and I must say it's been a struggle because space is so limited. All I want is to just start making money and live on my own. Guess it's a case of post-graduate blues. Yesterday I lied in bed all day and cried damn near half of it. I know it's only a matter of time before things start looking up so i'm gonna try and *WOOSAH* and pray for patience.

I have so much more to tell yall but I know how annoying a long post is..I'ma cut it short here and update again tomorrow..

CHILE PLEASE-It's over..so now what?

Black Women: A few observations:

I know you all probably get tired of hearing me talk about my fuckery so here's a few questions and suggestions about black women. If you're mad..I'm probably talking about YOU..

1. Why do women grip their boyfriends tighter and shoot daggers when an attractive(or unattractive) young lady walks past? Seriously though..he's the one looking! How about you just gouge his eyes out sweety? I'm certain that will stop him from staring..Pfft!

2. Why are black women so catty to other black female co-workers? For example: When I used to work at Victoria's Secret my supervisor (black woman) told me I could go on break "whenever". Well, when I decided to go on break she say's "I never told you that"..I coulda choked the bitch. Another incident is when I started working at the bank. She was the only black woman working there before me. I swear it took her a month to speak to me..ugh.



3. Why are black women always yelling/spanking at their kids in public? It's so tacky and necessary. If the kid acts up just whisper a threat in their ear like my mom used to do.."Wait till we get to the car..Ima whoop yo A$$!" LOL. No need to be all loud and ig'nant up in Walmart. Trifling..I swear..


4. "Babymommas"--Stop thinking your baby's father wants to be with you because he slid you the peen with a side of diapers. One of the things my males cousins(with 7 kids might I add LOL) told me is that a nilla will always have the option to EFF the mother of his child--because she will LET him. It doesn't mean he wants to be with you. One of the main reasons I refuse to be a "baby momma."

5. Addendum to #4--Stop harassing the next chick. There are some good guys who don't cheat with the "baby mommas"(gawd I hate that phrase) and genuinely want to start a new relationship. As the next chick, we understand that you have a child with the man...but seriously...Stop with the fuckery.

6. Stop wearing slippers and/or pajama pants out in public. It's tacky. It's one thing to run to the mailbox..But to the mall?? P.S-Scarves/net caps in public make you look like a sewer rat as well.

7. Any hair color that does not occur in nature should not be upon the crown of your head over the age of 21 or unless it's Halloween. Thee end.

CHILE PLEASE- There's plenty more where that came from..Black men, you're next...

The Drought

I haven't done sexytimes in saaaay...a minute (since the last time I saw SJ). And to top it off I haven't been doing anything about it. nothing. I've been purposely depriving myself. Wanna see how long I can go without shhhhh..(touching myself) I can't remember the last time i've gone more than a week. I guess you can call it a temporary celibacy challenge..Your girl is far from a nympho but I do need it. It calms me down & helps me sleep at night..Would like to have it...Whenever, wherever...shew! Look at me gettin all worked up..*sigh*


CHILE PLEASE-Jill ain't neva lied..

"This here celibacy thing..."

Celibacy Blues - Jill Scott



...Got me ready to drink some "Crown Royal on iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice"

Crown Royal - Jill Scott

College OVA! and IDK?!?

Guess who's BIZAACK?!! I've seriously missed the blog world! I apologize about the lack of posting. My life has been so bipolar lately so I figured when everything dies down I can give you all a decent update. With that said, things are still rough and tumble but I have a minute to type so here goes.....

Ok, I started writing that^^^^ yesterday but had to run out. See what i'm talm'bout!..rough and tumble

Here goes..again:

I'm finished COLLEGE!

So i've officially completed my undergraduate studies as a nursing major!!! I will be a Bachelor's degree prepared Registered Nurse!!!! No more exams, no more nursing clinicals in stupid white scrubs, no more bitch Professors, no more snooty ppl who think they know err'dayum thang. NO MORE! Now all that's left for me to complete is my nursing boards(NCLEX) and find a J-O-B. I've spent all my money (and mom's)registering for my applications and review course which translates into me being BROKE. I've updated my resume and networked with a few ppl that can help me get in where I fit in so i'm not too stressed on the job search. Otherwise things couldn't be better. I graduate May21st..Congrats the the c/o 2009!!! Stay tuned..Graduation pics will be posted!

IDK?!?!

Mens!
ActivistGuy. Okay. So we're still talking/hanging out, whatever you wanna call it. This is still a trial period so I guess both of us have been on our best behavior. Nothing physical or anything like that. Although, he said he has gotten more comfortable around me; as have I. We hang out a lot on campus and I'm starting to notice that ppl think we're a couple. He introduces me to a lot of ppl he knows (and he knows a LOT of ppl)..So what i'm getting at is: I don't know how to feel about that. On one hand, I don't mind. On the other hand, i'm still apprehensive about a relationship (justifiably so in my mind after all i've been through). And the last thing I want to do is waste the man's time. I can sense that he's getting a little impatient with me and would rather things to move faster. Soooo, idk. At this point i'm not saying "Yes" or "No"..the truth is--I just don't know....

SexyJamaican. Okay (I say "ok" alot in real life lol)..So he's just about ready to come home after graduating and completing his internship. He should be home next week to be exact. We've kept in touch and he's came up to visit me a couple times between blog updates. I've tried to keep this thing as platonic as possible but its hard when he's standing in front of me. We've gotten closer since we started talking again and I don't see myself shutting him out of my life anytime soon. I'm actually looking forward to him coming home. I miss him (i miss him i really wanna kiss him but I can't 678triple98212!!)..lol..damn Soulja Boy! *shakes fist* But seriously..I don't know what to do. I'm torn. On one hand, I might...possibly...slightly 'L-word him?' On the other hand, I don't think he feels the same way. And if he does, he's not saying it. (Aside: He called me 2am with Lenny Williams-'Cause I Love You playing in the background lmao). Now, maybe i'm reading too far into this and it was bad timing, but it's a weird feeling I have (or maybe stupidity) At this point: I'm leaving it at a tentative "No"..the truth is--I just don't know...

CHILE PLEASE- Since I don't know..I should probably find out.

Uncensored

This private shit ain't gone work.

CHILE PLEASE- If you don't like it. Don't read it!